---I definitely cannot hang like I used to. Which means I probably shouldn't try to. Drink
Realization #2...I'm getting fat. Not even kidding. I don't know if it's hormones or what, but lately (and lately means since Christmas) I have just been eating like a heffer. I crave things, I binge eat and I just feel yuck. I have been a very strict eater for about 3 years now. I gained a disgusting 94 lbs. when I was preggo for my wonderful little boy and had a gross and unflattering battle losing it afterwards. But when I did, I was so proud of myself, my hard work and dedication. Not only did I lose the 94 lbs. I shed an additional 10 or so more and toned my physique like it had never been before. I was very happy.
When hubbs and I started dating, about 2 or 3 months in I just stopped going to the gym...I was too busy with him, ya know - dating and all that jazz and I was just content - we were in love (well maybe not at 2 months, but eventually) and I just let my gym routine fall by the way side. I kept up my strict eating habits though so I didn't gain any weight, but I was quickly losing my toned physique I had worked so damn hard at. I went back to the gym in the months preceeding the wedding but again, let it fall by the way side thereafter. Its just effin ridiculous. I'm not joking. I just cannot get motivated, what so ever and on top of not going to the gym I find myself eating the worst foods more often than not. I don't know why looking in the mirror wearing last year's swimsuit, gagging at my appearance and woefully putting the suit back in its box has not been enough, but wtf!!! My lovely partner in crime, Dona turned me on to this really great '10 minute solutions' pilates DVD that is actually 50 minutes total if you do the whole thing and I think its great and its definitely a start...but I need more motivation.
Then, after reading Miss Veronika's blog this AM, I felt even worse about being such a fat bum because she is clearly VERY motivated and gets her arse to the gym ALL the time and is wearing a size 4...wtf, why can't I be back in a size 4 and be motivated?
When you feel good - you look good and you act right...you just exuberate that in your entire outer appearance. From your hair and makeup to your desk at work
For example when you look and feel good your car doesn't look like this:
Your sink doesn't look like this:
And you don't look like this when trying to put on your favorite pants